i thought i never gonna miss him anymore...

Take me out tonight

Where there's music and there's people

Who are young and alive

Driving in your car

I never never want to go home

Because I haven't got one anymore

Take me out tonight

Because I want to see people

And I want to see life

Driving in your car

Oh please don't drop me home

Because it's not my home, it's their home

And I'm welcome no more

And if a double-decker bus

Crashes into us

To die by your side

Is such a heavenly way to die

And if a ten ton truck

Kills the both of us

To die by your side

Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine

Take me out tonight

Take me anywhere, I don't care

I don't care, I don't care

And in the darkened underpass

I thought Oh God, my chance has come at last

But then a strange fear gripped me

And I just couldn't ask

Take me out tonight

Oh take me anywhere, I don't care

I don't care, I don't care

Driving in your car

I never never want to go home

Because I haven't got one

No, I haven't got one

And if a double-decker bus

Crashes in to us

To die by your side

Is such a heavenly way to die

And if a ten ton truck

Kills the both of us

To die by your side

Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine

There is a light that never goes out

There is a light that never goes out

There is a light that never goes out

There is a light that never goes out

he's not here for more of a week. he's got a event at a x city. actually, i thought i'll go with him doing that event, bcos they ( the event organizer ) told so. yeaah, honestly i really really disappointed. i wanted that job like crazy.

it's been 2 days since he's go there, and 5 days since we get together again. :) and i'm already miss him a looooot. i do!
i dont know how exactly this feelin come in again, but i feel thankful for this feeling. its like 4 years ago. and i just looked up our picture when that time.
i'm serious with this feelin, and i hope he's too.
and although both of we know this relationship can't going anywhere, can't move foward, i wanted to be with him until dead separates us (amin) in a good willing. in the hands of God. imnot saying mine or his's God, because there's just  one God.

miss you, y.

half.

weheartit

tidak ada tangan terkait.
kata yang keluar pun ambigu.
dan keraguan.
hanya sekilas sentuhan pada pipi.
ada yang melega, tapi sesak masih tersisa.


                                                                                           - nov 7th 11 -

same old story

i think i had an parasuicide. its like a tendency to hurted your self. i had it by physically and emotionally.

you know, you over and over hurted by someone, but you not leaving him yet. you can't.emotionally  parasuicide, thats what i feelin rite now. many times i said to my self to let it go. but i just can't. one time, finally i could let my feelin' go, but he's come over again, and make me feel lovable then he's just dropped me down.
i need an ear rite now. i want to share this pain. but i have nobody, but God to sharing this.

and all i wanted, just let this feelin go suddenly.

destiny ?

Sometimes You Can't Make it On Your Own

U2/U2

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I, that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need, I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in meâ

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

just like you say, its like to fighting with your self everytime we fight.

and i miss had a fight with you.

you become really sensitive these days. yeah i know me too. but you know that i like to blaming somobody else, huh? :)

fake and plastic.

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself

It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins

It wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run

It wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out

If I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted all the time

All the time...
All the time...

you fake plastic love...